I was having this push and pull experience of loving my kids so freaking much and wanting to be home with them, but also feeling overwhelmed and overstimulated, needing more time and space to myself, and craving something outside of momming 24/7 to fill me up. I was so grateful that I could be a stay at home mom, but something about it just wasn't lighting me up anymore. Many days I felt bored, impatient, resentful, stressed, scattered, or lonely. I was just going through the motions trying to get through the day, knowing deep down there had to be a better, more fulfilling way to be.

I started making small changes towards the mom I wanted to be. I rewrote old stories that said all moms are overwhelmed, hot messes, and have to put themselves last. I adopted new beliefs about what motherhood can look like and how good it can get. I stopped feeling guilty and found ways to show up for myself, challenge myself, and keep connected to others. I started embodying a different energy that allowed for more relaxation, fun, ease, and excitement in my days. My joy, calm, and enthusiasm for life came back full force.

I saw that the happier and healthier I was, everyone benefitted. And it was possible to create a life that felt so so good to me and still allowed me to stay home with my babes.