Family/Relationships

Current mood. Yikes.


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MOOD.⁣⁣
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How’s everyone else doing?⁣⁣
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Some days are great. Being at home with our little family of 3 (and by that I mean 4, sorry Wes🐶 !) is wonderful. Soaking up this unexpected time we have together, working on our house, enjoying the weather, cooking new things, watching our little man grow up before our eyes. It’s not time you can get back so in many ways it’s such a blessing. Our little cocoon is safe and comfortable.⁣⁣⁣

And then some days it feels like the walls are closing in.⁣⁣

I wanna shout off our front porch like the scene at the end of Titanic – is anyone alive out there?! Can anyone hearrr me?! – because I realize it’s been days and I haven’t seen another person besides the ones in my house.⁣⁣⁣
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Cabin fever hits hard and no matter how many walks you take it’s not making up for all the missing you’re doing. Of people, activities, normalcy.⁣⁣
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I miss our families.⁣⁣
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I want our son to be able to be with and get to know his huge beautiful family all over the country.⁣⁣
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I want to casually see our friends who live so close yet feel so far away right now.⁣⁣
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I’m proud of our state for (mostly) doing a good job by following guidelines, being smart, keeping each other safe.⁣⁣
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And I feel things loosening up. Everyone’s getting the itch. So I worry about what the coming months will look like.⁣⁣⁣
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There’s a lot to feel.⁣⁣⁣
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If I had to pick one label for how I’m feeling this moment it would be : tired.⁣⁣
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Tired of things we are doing, tired of things we aren’t doing. Tired for friends and family on the frontlines. Tired of the unknowns. Tired of missing so many people so darn much.⁣⁣⁣
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Whatever feels you’re feeling, there’s nothing wrong with them.⁣⁣
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What would be your word today?

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